Tuesday, December 13, 2022

 Hi. It's been two years since my last post.


I've grown, and indeed, many things have changed.

I am no longer a student--but I will be again soon!


Three of my cats died in 2021.

One ran away from home right after I bathed him.

Other than that, too many things happened, and I can't put them into words.

To put it short, I was devastated in 2021.


But 2022 hits differently.

So many great things happened this year.

And I am looking forward to many more.

I am blessed with where I am now.

Tuesday, October 18, 2022

Rinduku

 Betulkah itu, ketika kamu bilang kamu pemulung rindu?

Karena rinduku berceceran di aspal berdebu.

Rinduku mengeriap dibalik batu-batu kecil.

Kata mereka, rinduku tersangkut, terjepit di tengah tenggorokan sungai tabu.


Rinduku tabu. Begitu tabu, tenggorok berdebu.

Begitu pekat, tenggorok tercekat.

Rinduku buta. Buta seperti awan biru.

Buta dari kehilangan tongkat. Tersandung, mengaduh-aduh.


Rinduku manyun. Badut dan anak-anak.

Bibir merah dan rambut acak. Rinduku malu,

Tertelan tawa bidadari dalam bak sampah.


Rinduku heran. Terkesiap pelan.

Detik-detik beku, semesta bisu, pilu.


Hei, kamu, kuning di tengah hitam.

Hakimi saja rinduku. Lalu mengadu pada diam.


Berdiri di tengah gila. Terpaku pada gelisah.

Rinduku, kapankah akan habis oksigen dalam tabungmu?


Susah. Rinduku benci matematika.

Tak bisa hitung hari-hari, detik-detik berjuta-juta.

Rinduku pusing. Matematika sulit.


Rindu.

Pemiliknya sedang mencumbu sandu.

Rinduku beradu. Memicu riuh, menyesap malu.

Aduh.