Consuming

"Are you cold?", he asked
I shake my head
still you offer me a warm hug

Tenderness then comes in place
I find home between your arms
and the fierceness of your touch
I find my place lost inside your soul
You make me whole. Full. Alive.

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I am finally wrapped by the spirit of the sun,

the breeze near the beach,

the serenity.

His wings were silhouette against the blue water of the bay
and I could hardly believe it

Saya tahu Tuan pasti lelah dan bosan. Makanya hari ini saya berdoa semoga Tuhan meringankan setiap langkah Tuan agar bisa tetap berjalan.
Tapi jika Tuan butuh pundak, saya siap menguatkan karena saya yakin kamu bisa.

mau jadi seniman, katanya

sekarang saya punya cita-cita baru:
jadi seniman
yang bisa menggambar dan melukis,
memadukan kata dengan melodi,
mengekspresikan tarian melalui birasa, biraga, juga birama,
mengambil momentum yang tepat,
dan bisa buat saya banyak interaksi

sama Tuan

Saya jadi semakin sadar kalau ruangan ini terasa semakin sempit, semakin sesak, semakin padat terisi.
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Akhirnya ada aktivitas lagi di dalam sini.

We're Safe

My eyes are a bit blurry today

maybe because I barely wear my glasses

and I need some adaptation

But I am sure enough that

the skies are grey,

very dark and cloudy

Even though it is not stormy,

the winds are so strong

make all the trees bend,

the leaves rustle,

and my body ache in pain

Fortunately there's no typhoon

I closed my eyes and spoke to you in a silent way

Should've Peek, Not Stare

Gosh. Your eyes. How can I never noticed them? So pretty as can be.

(Don't look)
(Don't look)
(Don't look)

But maybe you can gaze back at mine,
see how deep I fall for you

Because I've never seen eyes that tells about the universe,
so bright yet so blue,
makes me wanna dive in

Kadang kamu nggak perlu bersuara

Bilang ini-itu soal langkah orang,
sebenarnya sudah lewat batas hijaumu

Jika perlu, sini aku bisikkan lagi
asal jangan sampai hilang dari ingatan
(Lalu aku mendekatkan mulut ke telingamu supaya kamu bisa simak baik-baik)

"Tiap-tiapnya punya pilihan,
pasti tahu arah dan jarak yang harus ditempuh"

Sorrow

There are times when my body falls to the floor

Where I am lost in my own twisted mind,

feeling blue and pains are cold

Oh dear, my soul cries

It goes surging, drained, and numb

Undeniable Love

'twas when my eyes sparkle,
my smile beams,
the colour come into my cheeks,
and my heart skips a beat everytime I see you,

I realized that I'm attracted to you.

if you meet me halfway,
if you realise what i just realised,
we never have to wonder

Terima kasih karena sudah memberiku kesempatan
untuk merasakan jadi sepetik bunga cantik
yang dirawat sepenuh hati.

Silent Feelings and Thoughts

If there is something I need to tell you,

it’s I’m sorry

I’m sorry for making you feel lonely and fed up most of the time,

for not being there when I know that you wanted me to

But see things through my glasses, honey

You may not see all very well,

because our eyes are not the same

or try to wear my shoes,

see whether they fit yours

But if they don’t,

no need to buy new glasses or shoes that fit yours, honey

You think that you’ll see things clearer from away and be more comfortable,

but they won’t be suitable for me

See things my way, honey,

with my own glasses and shoes

And I’ll see things your way,

with your own glasses and shoes

Trust me,

with all your head and heart

Vision things through our personal glasses and let’s switch shoes

Take it all so we can share

or things will never going work

(PS. This poetry is my best friend’s request.)

My Soul is Forever Tied

Mari kembali ke tahun 2006, di mana untuk pertama kalinya saya menari di atas panggung. Waktu itu, saya masih menginjakkan kaki di kelas 2 SD dan sudah berani tampil untuk wisuda kakak kelas saya. Saya masih ingat betul jika saya tidak menyukai pakaian yang saya gunakan. Pertama, warnanya emas berkilau yang menurut saya norak. Kedua, bahannya gatal luar biasa.

Tari pertama saya adalah Tari Indang. Lagu dalam tarian ini adalah favorit kakek saya, yang dulu kalau jalan-jalan naik mobilnya pasti lagu inilah yang diputar sepanjang perjalanan. Believe it or not, semua momen itu masih terekam jelas dalam ingatan saya, hanya perlu di recall sedikit rinciannya.

Time has gone by so fast, and now here I am, 12 years later, still dancing.